june, 2019 (the group chat).

Last year was eventful for me.

I have met so many new people with so many language from some countries that I have never been to.

I didn't know if it was a wise decision I have made or was it a time bomb that will explode at any time?

I know the answer now.

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It was when the first time in years, the Zenia, myself, was trying to be more extrovert and started the conversation in a group chat. 

Yes, I would never done that. Never.

But things intrigued me and I decided to say "hallo". 

All my life, I have been dealing with several disorders--that I didn't even know before. I have fears of being rejected in a social situation because it kinda happened to me so many times.

There are times I failed to find the "clicked" in a clique. Even my mind thinking why can't I match my mind to them and why can't I just get along and just follow their conversation?

I thought this group was also the same. I thought they were gonna just ignore me and just talking to each other just because I JUST joined the group and that I only know one person in the group.

But surprisingly, they have accepted me and they kinda built my self-confidence to talk more in the group chat.

I have never felt so happier in my life that finally the "clicked" happened.

I swear it was satisfying to have more people to talk to you and learned more about their point of views because me, myself is always so curious about things--I want to keep learning.

To be honest, it was the happiest time of my life that I even stucked myself on phone so much.

I was enjoying it until I got to know someone more from the group chat.

It was beautiful yet a disaster to met you, A.