june, 2019 (get to know you more)

I remembered the first time you greeted me in the group chat. I thought you were such an extrovert with your own charm.

You asked the group if one of us play PUBG and at that time, I was often playing it too with my brother. So, at that time you asked us that, I thought "Ahh, maybe it'd be nice to have another friend to play PUBG other than my brother".

So I said, I played it as well.

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We played it for the first time ever. I was nervous because you were the first foreign PUBG buddy I have and I know I'm not that good in speaking with the person or people I just met.

I was afraid actually. I was afraid if my voice was cracking a lot and that my voice sounded so bad haha. Especially after I heard your voice.

It feels like something hit me hard--but it hit me hard in my heart. It was crazy though, your voice is so relaxing and you were funny.

To be honest, I never expected things will shifted after that one game. But I cannot help but to wish you would ask me to play with you again after that so that I can listen to your voice again.

And again.

You said I was funny and that kind of made my heart flutter a bit and no, it wasn't romantically nor that i realized if it was. But it felt so good knowing it comes from you.

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We kinda talk a lot more outside the group chat on our direct messages. I remember I came out of the closet for the first time to you--I mean, I wasn't sure should or shouldn't I tell a person about it and when I did I felt so... relieved?

Yes, you were the first person I have told, A.

After that we kinda build our friendship well and I didn't know when did it start that I felt something in my stomach every time you sent me messages.

I wanted to get to know you more. 

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