introduction.

Lately, I have not been myself.

For this past month I'm experiencing something I have never experienced before. Something I have always avoided.

Things that I thought I won't experience it. Honestly, what did I blabbering about?

The crisis. 

Yes. Life crisis, perhaps?

I felt like my life is falling apart... slowly... but sure and I couldn't even stop it or even avoided it.

My mom has always told me to be strong and suck it up. She told me to keep believing that every downhill that even you cannot do anything and let it just hit you hard, you need to be strong.

But I'm sorry mom. It's not that I haven't tried. Oh believe me I did. I have tried. 

It just too hard.

Too overwhelming even for me; the person who always lying to herself that she's okay; that she's strong.

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People are saying that I should write again.

So I tried.

I have tried to write; Love things, poems.

It made me sick and hurt me more.

So I stopped and decided to made another blog that will focus mainly on me, myself.

I made this to make me feel better. 

To ease this anxiety and depression.

Life maybe hard at the moment and it feels like the universe hates me but there are a lot of people that are depending on me. 

That loves me for who I am.

That will always support me no matter what and no matter how hard it is for me to fight right now.

That will never get tired to lead me back to the old life that I always admire. 

The old me.

The most cheerful; full of positivity and never put someone else first but herself.